Lately I have been pretty bored with my life in general. I currently have no job, I'm a college drop out, and I have no idea what I want to do for a career. Where am I going in life? I've found that when I become interested in something, I get into it for a while, and then lose all interest once I get deeper into it. An example would be cooking. When I was a high school student, I really enjoyed being in the kitchen. I loved making food, and I especially loved eating what I had made. I took basic cooking classes, like Foods and Nutrition, and then went further by taking Intro to Professional Foods 1 and 2. I still loved it! Then, in my senior year I decided to take advantage of a program offered to Juniors and Seniors in our school district. The Clark County Skills Center is an educational facility that offers high school students the opportunity to get educated seriously in a career based environment while earning credits toward graduation. Restaurant Management, Dental Assisting, Auto Repair, and Criminal Justice are just a few of the programs offered. I took the Restaurant Management program, and failed miserable. I hated it. I hated being in the kitchen, I hated being around all of the other students, and I really disliked the instructors. My interest in cooking vanished very quickly. Even now, more than four years later, I still dislike cooking. The reason I am explaining this story is because I have been showing a lot of interest in photography. I've always had a small interest, but never really did anything with it other than taking a digital photography class in high school, which I loved more than any class I had taken. The funny thing is, even though I loved the class, I still struggled to pass it. I was just never able to stay on track and finish assignments, even though I was learning everything I was supposed to. I would generally go off track and start working on my own projects; things that sparked my own interest. I passed the class with a C-. Afterward, I moved on and just sort of left it all behind. I still continued using Photoshop, but never for anything serious. Now, I'm starting to show a lot more interest in photography and Photoshop. The only thing that worries me is my history of losing interest and hating something after I start getting more of a serious education on it. As well, I am still in debt from my failed previous attempt at college. I'm not much in debt, but $2,800 is a lot to someone who is unemployed. I'm worried that I won't be able to go anywhere until I get that debt payed off, but I also feel like I won't be able to go anywhere without an education, and without an education I wont be able to pay that debt off. As well, I'm still not even that sure I want to go into photography! I have no confidence in my creative ability at all, and fear that I do not have the ability to focus enough to do what it takes to get where I want to be. My mind does not stay on track when I have to sit down and do something. It starts gaining energy, and then my body and mind just want to get up and do anything else other than what I am supposed to be doing. I can't focus. This is why I dropped out of college the first time. I kept failing classes because I couldn't focus on what I was supposed to do. Ugh, I'm so frustrated and tired of my life right now. I want to do something, but feel like I have no power to do so.